writing brought in a very real creative-based fear in me, where, when i was a child, i thought i’d have to write in a very mystical, poetic, traditionally beautiful, slightly archaic style and sense to be taken seriously by the writers community; a community which can stratify itself and more often than not, entertain some very self glorified people. 

and this held me back and helped me produce some (great) unstructured, albeit cinematic but generally bad writing. 

then i figured if i am going to be a ‘’bad writer”, i might as well produce some substandard writing which i was bound to like a little, rather than some conventional writing which i’d be bad at anyway. 

and so, disentangling myself from this vast clump of nonsense, categorically helped/is still helping me write some of my best and worst lines i’ve ever read in this genre.

make sense?